Lifestyle

So I decided to.video chat my ex. Yeah I think that was a bad idea. everything was good until his sister decided to come into the room with the baby. I was fine, talking to his sister and the I notice that I can see the baby in the crib yelling out “dadda.” Trying to stay strong I was trying to make conversation until he tells me to hold on and all I see is his shadow towards the baby and I just broke down and hung up the call.
Just when I was about to.end.my sessions with my therapist because I was finally over everything and then this happens. Really??
As I am thinking and crying my eyes I realize that it isn’t the fact that he has a kid and I can’t be with him, its the fact that I wanted us to have kids. I wanted to be the one to have his kids not being in a relationship and already having a baby that isn’t mine.

is that even possible? haha i guess so if I’m gonna get called for it.

Why?? this guys is something else!! I don’t think i have ever worked this hard in my life lol maybe i should just stop.

Ill get this feeling like you have left my side. Not a care in the world but the person you love the most. and I’m just there, doing me of course but i feel like you just left me. and there are times that I get depressed for that reason alone. but i guess i have to learn to deal with it because the future is going to change as soon as you say “i do”.